I cried a lot today at unexpected times. The dog won't stop barking. I had a lot of work to do. I kept going back and forth between wanting to get on the treadmill and take a nap. I took a nap. I got my work done. I had microwave burritos for dinner. All I … Continue reading Hard days
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Soup and books
Today is day 12 of self-isolation for me. It was a pretty good day, all things considered. I started a new book (The Glass Hotel by Emily St. John Mandel), which was in the last delivery I got from my library before they closed the building and stopped circulating items. I'm about a quarter into … Continue reading Soup and books
Where did Saturday go?
I was exhausted yesterday and missed posting. I slept 11 hours Friday night, so my Fitbit tells me, but it sure didn't feel like it. I managed to walk the dog a couple times, get on the treadmill, vacuum and clean up around the house. I'm pretty sure I napped, though I'm having a hard … Continue reading Where did Saturday go?
I made it through the week
And I only cried once. There's a pencil on my desk with lines from A Love Song for J. Alfred Prufrock on it. In a minute there is time For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse. This is the first thing I saw when I sat down to work today. It made me … Continue reading I made it through the week
I almost missed posting today
I’m writing this on my phone in bed. Because today I hit my edge. I couldn’t even talk to M about where my mind was without weeping. And that was before 10 am. I pushed through and worked until mid afternoon and decided that pushing through wasn’t working. I’ve been doing it all week and … Continue reading I almost missed posting today
My favorite leggings
I found several holes in my favorite leggings today. Forget about real pants when my "coworkers" here just plaster them with fur. Work was good, but I'm having trouble finding the motivation and concentration for some tasks, so they just keep moving from one to-do list to the next. I had to go out to … Continue reading My favorite leggings
So I left the house today
Our pup Watson needed to have a procedure today, so my partner dropped him off at the vet this morning, and then went to the grocery store. We both went to the vet to pick him up this evening. He's okay, but groggy from the anesthesia and tired, too. He's wanting to be held all … Continue reading So I left the house today
A strangely normal Sunday
So this is day three for me, and it was much like a normal Sunday, except I fixed myself a cocktail around 4pm because why not? I'm not going anywhere. I did laundry, finished a book, changed the sheets on the bed, baked banana bread and walked with the dog. It was cool today, but … Continue reading A strangely normal Sunday
Social distancing when I’m already depressed and anxious
I'm going to try to do a daily update here. I decided on Wednesday that after an appointment Thursday afternoon I'd be staying home for the foreseeable future. I'm not panicking, or overreacting if that was your first thought. I catch everything. I had H1N1. I have recurrent sinus problems. I have "seasonal asthma" even … Continue reading Social distancing when I’m already depressed and anxious
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